Smile

 

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Think                        smile

Breathe                      smile

Ease the heart           smile

Relax the belly           smile

Be                                smile

 

Within this radiance your needs are met

Open up to this shower of golden honey.

 

I lived in the sphere of sadness for years.

Worrying about what wasn’t here.

 

A moment, a movement, a spark of awareness.

Smile from the inside. We are here.

New Moon in Gemini

MercuryMercurio ~ La Danza del Sole (Foto: Mariani)

I have been dwelling in the space between thinking/doing and feeling/being. How do I harmonize them? Is one more prevalent than the other? How do they cross and intertwine? Or are they separate?

The New Moon in Gemini this Thursday is about rebirth after death. The Full Moon in Scorpio took me down into the pits, to see what was no longer working in my life, no longer serving my goal to serve. It was an uneven path that I walked, full of small and large obstacles, mostly inner, that I had to overcome. Facing fear of failure = facing fear of death. I am finally embracing Death as my Guide to bring spiritual teaching on to this planet. I am aware that this may sound morbid to some. No worries! Embracing death means to live fully!

I have had a strong connection to death and dying since I was a kid but never truly embraced it. Now it’s time. I am committing to using my talents to go deep within the mysteries of what it means to die from the position of the living. Also, I am committing to bringing healing sounds to the dying so do contact me if you would like to know more about it.

A very good friend, this morning, told me about “flow.” I have heard this before…. “let yourself flow…” or “go with the flow.” While I could understand the concept, I was not really able to do it. This morning I got it! I can’t flow unless I am strongly rooted inside, spiritually. With my personality, going with the flow without an inner anchor means total scattering of energy and lack of focus. However, when the Spiritual Source is strong within, everything else can flow.

Mercury, the ruler of Gemini and Virgo, the leader for the month to come, has wings at his feet. He can flow and fly! However, he is also holding a caduceus, the symbolic representation of harmony and enlightenment, a strong staff representing our main energy channel, the column in the physical body, and the flow of energies that dance around it.

Revolutions

Life’s blows can knock you off your feet. No doubt. You may be isolated in your family, community, and society, and can’t find a way to get out. It’s hell. When we feel vulnerable, it’s important to remember that we are not alone.

A few years ago, I lived with a Costa Rican tarantula in Kingston, NY. The tarantula was in a terrarium. It’s a long story, and the reason why I mention it here is that I witnessed the tarantula’s molt. I studied it, too. When tarantulas molt they prepare in advance. The process of cracking the exoskeleton through the growth of a new and larger body takes some time. The tarantula prepared a safe and secluded area by spinning a net of protection with silk. When the time came to let the old outer sheath go, it retired and became very sensitive to sounds, smells, and any other vibration in the room.

In my experience, our process of managing pain is similar. Not the moment when we are hurt, but in later, when we are ready to heal, forgive, and let go. We retire and process. This is a lonesome place and we mistake it for “being alone.” We are not alone. I remind myself daily that I stand on the spiritual shoulders of my ancestors, and that we all are on this planet together. Wether you pray a god/dess, another form of divinity, or you are an atheist, you still come from a line of people, and carry their talents, struggles, and traumas. We are not our physical bodies alone. There is more to our expression, joy, and sharing than what we can communicate through our five senses. The mind, our sixth sense, remains mostly a mystery, and this can be our field of inquiry, too. Why do I think the way I do?

Life happens, and we can’t control the process of living because are not alone. We live in an ecosystem that is also changing, in cultures co-existing on a planet that is making revolutions at approximately 30km per second. How are we supposed to control this process?

SONIC MANIFESTATIONS

SONIC MANIFESTATIONS
I am sitting in a cafe on Fullerton. The radio is playing “You give love a bad name” by Bon Jovi. I was really into this band when I was 12 years-old. I used to listen to their music in the countryside of Siena, learn the lyrics by heart, then imagine I was in the U.S. I even got a perm. No comments, please
Later it was Jimi Hendrix and The Doors, later John Coltrane, later… well, the list goes on.
Now I am actually here, looking outside the window and remembering this girl dreaming about me thinking about her.
In retrospect, I see that it was music that brought me here, by allowing me to manifest this “me” who is now typing about itself.

Letting Go

Receive by letting go, not by grasping.

So it is with breath, body, emotions and mind.

Relax around the edges of focus, and stay relaxed.

Prepare and persevere, for when the moment comes, you will be ready to hit the target.

The Slants

Tonight, watching an episode of Vice News, I learned about the expression “slants.” In a section of the program, they were talking about an Asian-American band, The Slants, who has been fighting with the Supreme Court to have a right to their band’s name. The court says that it cannot legitimize a racist pejorative term. However, the band says, this term is used and who better than them can denounce it by making it paradoxical? More here.
I was not aware of the term. I am learning this culture as I live in different parts of the US but there are always expressions and realities that escape my awareness.
In any case, I am taken aback by vulgarity in human relationships. I looked at the etymology of this word/adjective:
slant (v.)
1520s, “to strike obliquely” (against something), alteration of slenten “slip sideways” (c. 1300), perhaps via a Scandinavian source (compare Swedish slinta “to slip,” Norwegian slenta “to fall on one side”), from Proto-Germanic *slintanan. Intransitive sense of “to slope, to lie obliquely” is first recorded 1690s; transitive sense of “to give a sloping direction to” is from 1805. Related: Slanted; slanting. As an adverb from late 15c.; as an adjective from 1610s. Slant rhyme attested from 1944.
In the sense of a shape of eyelids, I learned on another etymology site, the word is used in Europe also to describe Europeans who have slants such as Scandinavians, Germans, Polish and a few others.
For power and money, humans disrespect themselves by disrespecting others. Wake up!

Levels of Thought

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A few days ago I flew from Florence to Frankfurt. It was a 7.20am flight and I was assigned a window seat. The plane left Florence on time. We flew over the Alps as the Sun began to rise. When you witness a sunrise or a sunset from a plane, once you are over the clouds, you can see all the colors of the spectrum over the earth’s horizon, red being closer to the earth, then orange, yellow, green blue, and indaco fading into the depth of the universe. It’s spectacular. I was sitting there, miraculously traveling many miles per hour, observing the macrocosmic manifestation of the color spectrum.

Once we were over Frankfurt, as we began descending, I could see the clouds under us, covering the earth as far as my eyes could travel. Above the clouds there was clear, rarified air, with the Sun shining bright. The clouds looked turbulent from above. We descended even more and plunged into the clouds. The turbulence hit us and, all of a sudden, the quiet ease of our cruising was replaced by agitation and lack of clarity of vision. All I could see from the window was a grey fog. We descended further, below the clouds, getting ready for landing in a new rainy day in Frankfurt.

It dawned on me (yes, I guess the pun  works here) that what I had just experienced was a good representation of the various levels of thought. Let’s take it from the bottom up.

In the day-to-day life of humans, most daily thoughts are connected to survival: if you are privileged –> What time do I need to get up? Where is my phone? What am I eating for lunch?; If not –> Am I going to survive today? How many more minutes do I have to live? Am I going to get out of this hell? This is the level below the clouds. The clouds represent thinking patterns that are related to our habits and attitude. The clouds can be sparse (a thought here and there) or thick (lots of thoughts). Life under the clouds depends on the quality of the clouds. There is turbulence and instability in overthinking, in letting our thoughts think us rather than choosing how we think and what we think about. Right above this level of thinking is a more rarefied, and more elevated level of thinking, where I choose my thoughts. This is what yoga calls ekagrata, the capacity to choose a thought at a time, to start a thought, follow it, concentrate on it, and then let it go at will; the turbulence of inner voices is gone and I can find stability in cruising (i.e., living). Above this level is the deep indigo of space, a place in which there is no more distinction between being and thinking. The Sun is awareness: without it, I would have not been able to see anything at all outside of that window. Life would not exist.

Why is this useful? I was caught in a whirlpool of thoughts today that caused me to feel agitated and anxious but when I remembered this experience, it was very easy for me to see this one moment as one level of thinking rather than my whole reality. I was “under the clouds” at that moment but there were other levels I could access, if I wanted to. This awareness allowed me to leave the emotional states I was in, take a deep breath, and focus on what was truly inspiring and important.